I've been taking the Ganciclovir at home now for over a week and its clear from the blood tests that the virus counts aren't going down. The good thing is this means no more doing the Ganciclovir at home and hooking myself up to that syringe driver for a couple of hours a day. The bad news is that I'm going to have to be admitted while I have this other drug called Phosgarnate, plus its pretty nasty stuff, after only a few doses its started to affect my kidney functions and it means I've got to have a lot of replacement fluids like magnesium and calcium. The Phosgarnate makes me pretty sick but its only temporary.
So I'm pretty gutted about that but at least it means getting rid of this virus at last and my Doctor says it should only be a few days of treatment. I'm hoping which the virus gone I'll start to get my appetite back some more, that's really what's concerning me at the moment, I'd hoped to be feeling a little better than this at this point. I mean I know I can't rush things and most people at this stage don't feel anywhere near as good as I've been over the last couple of weeks but its just frustrating not to be able to eat properly, stops me trying to get fit again really.
The last few days have been a bit of a struggle, being on my own at home, it's difficult to find the motivation to cook and all that after a while. Still I've seen a few friends over the last couple of days and I'm going to see a few more over the next few days so I'm looking forward to that. I think just being alone makes everything seem a lot worse, even though I've been through a lot worse than this already and felt a lot worse.
